maticus

Tue, 25 Mar 2003 01:42:00 GMT

my heart is so heavy right now.. i miss denise so much and im with her... i dont know what it is.. maybe we are drifting apart or maybe we are just at some wierd point and we are both just over exaggerating.. all i know is i will die before i give up on this girl.. seriously..

Fri, 14 Feb 2003 19:49:37 GMT

i think i mean a valentine's day tribute....

a fabulous day of love..

Fri, 14 Feb 2003 19:47:18 GMT

i don't think i have ever been so excited about valentine's day..well i'm sure it's because i've never ever in my whole 20 years been so absolutely and completely in love as i am with denise.. she is so perfect in everyway possible.. i feel like i hit the lottery everyday when i wake up before her and just watch her sleep..what a perfectly beautiful
person inside and out.. i'm not quite sure why out of the whole year, one day is designated to show the one you love your affection for them. i think if you love.. i mean trully love your other half with all that you are, then you probably feel like i do.. i'm overflowing with love for my princess on valentine's but i guess we'll call this a tribute to denise to let her know that my heart is hers on the other 364 days as well.. happy valentine's day sweetheart, i love you..

babadabaa!! babababababaaaaaaa!!!!!

Sat, 08 Feb 2003 19:38:26 GMT

im so stoked to go boarding tonight... me, denise, and.. who gives a shit who else are going to massenutten for to board for like 4 hours or so.. he!he!he! i dont usually spend anytime on my ass but i hope i dont fall on my new ink..yikes... denise ..please hurry up and get off of work i miss you so much...

Sun, 26 Jan 2003 23:09:57 GMT

Strike Anywhere it is...

Fri, 24 Jan 2003 15:23:09 GMT

so i get to red lobster today only to find out that they dont think it would be a good idea that i work there since i walked out on olive garden a while back and they just found out about it.. how about tell me that in the beginning before i fucking commit myself to the company and shit.. or how about i pull the fucking fire alarm and sit on the roof with an assault rifle and blast everybody that comes outside..then it could "matt lobster." im just so fucking tired of bullshit. was i really that bad of a person in some other life? what the fuck do i always get the shitty wrap for? damnit man.. denise you're my rock.. promise me you'll always be there to keep me together.. the saga continues... oh yeah!! brandon come home!! leave the fat guy and come home!! we miss you dude!! mindie hooked the bathroom up dude.. it look s sweet.. there's a pic of you in the bathroom for god sakes.. people miss you here..

spooky...

Thu, 21 Nov 2002 03:16:33 GMT

im so excited about tonight!! denise and i are going to the battlefield because i have a show when everyone else is going so ill have to skip that night.. i wish i could go with the group..poopy. but im sure between denise, me, the walky talkies, the wacky tobacky, and mindie's so called "drum beat in the distance" we should be able to have a smashing time..spooky.. good times good times....

Sun, 17 Nov 2002 02:27:55 GMT

mindie and i finally talked kinda.. i feel so much better.. it was all wierd going over there and stuff..right on..

stuff..

Sat, 09 Nov 2002 00:32:37 GMT

denise is at work and im so fucking bored.. i just got home from band practice..i hate playing music with these mother fuckers.. they dont know the first thing about music theory and they aren't serious..i wish brandon would hurry up and become an odyssey on the guitar so we could be famous already..BRANDON THIS HAS GONE ON LONG ENOUGH!!! GRRR!!! just kiddin'... ahhh...the saga continues...

boxcar racer...

Thu, 07 Nov 2002 02:09:59 GMT

i went to see H2O and boxcar racer with denise.. lots of fun! i didn't think denise could really walk on people's heads but sure enough.. i also got into a huge wrestling match with like 15 people at the end of the show when travis threw a stick into the audience.. we all wrestled around for about 10 minutes and then finally it was me and one guy left and i offered a game of rock, paper, scissor because he was way bigger than me and i dont think i could have got it from him.. needless to say the stick is now where it rightfully belongs..on my "wall of fame" along with tre' cool's stick from greenday.. party on...

love and hate...

Tue, 05 Nov 2002 18:48:17 GMT

i hate shawn.. i hate hot topic.. and i hate everyone in that god forsaken hell hole of neverending horsecrap except for mindie and dawnavich.. but other than that im in love and i can't talk long because im going to see my love... hehehe..

Mon, 04 Nov 2002 01:03:48 GMT

grrr... what to do what to do.... seems to be a very common question in my mind lately.. what do you do when your "girl" and you talk about going to a movie together for quite sometime and instead she goes out to eat with another guy and goes to that movie.. maybe it is a friend but it's the simple concept.. is this just absolutely packed with people that don't put themselves in other people's shoes.. i am a very easy person to get along with but jesus fucking christ...whatever..the saga continues...

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Sat, 02 Nov 2002 06:56:47 GMT

i know now why people are so hooked to this "live journal" thing.. im sitting here with like a thousand things on my mind and i feel like the one person that can make it all better isn't around..and its always that much better when you go to there house thinking they are going to be there and they're not.. all in all bad night.. but when not a single soul is here for me i always have my journal..